Being disgusted by something, someone, an activity, or an ideology is not the same as fearing it. And there is a lot of evidence that self-disciplined, industrious people with high standards who live orderly, well-regulated lives are more disgust sensitive than those who do not; if you accept low standards for yourself, you’re not as easily disgusted, in other words.
Jordan Peterson, Canadian clinical psychologist, public intellectual, and professor of psychology at the University of Toronto, said, “Hitler bathed about four times a day and was also a great worshipper of willpower, which is associated with orderliness, and that’s associated with conscientiousness, and seems maybe to be associated with disgust sensitivity in some way that isn’t yet understood – an appeal to purification…
“Low openness and high orderliness, which is associated with disgust, which is associated with the extended immune system, which is the proclivity of people to keep themselves away from potential sources of contamination. Conscientious societies [and therefore individuals] are more civilized and also more orderly, and that makes them more disgust sensitive.”
Gregg R. Murray Ph.D. wrote, “They speculated that conservatives are more disgust sensitive than liberals as a result of their concern with purity-related norms and that this difference would manifest itself on issues that some may associate with sexual purity (e.g., homosexual sex and, therefore, gay rights). Sure enough, Kevin and his co-authors found that conservatives are more easily disgusted than liberals.”
I find those who don’t hold themselves to high standards and compromise easily are quick to call those who are disgusted by perverse, immoral behaviour and collectivism, “judgemental,” and to back their criticism up with Christian scriptures that are taken out of context, yet another demonstration of their inability to discipline their thoughts and conclusions.
Notice how fiercely obese people defend others of their ilk who are being justly criticized and how combatively potheads react to valid information regarding their self-inflicted brain damage. Justifying and enabling bad behaviour, low productivity, and bad choices: the province of losers.
Your disgust is not, therefore, to be confused with fear, but it is rather, perhaps, an expression of your high self-regard and noble aspirations.